Q: Why do I continue going down this self destructive path? A: Because you hate yourself and this seems absolutely in line with how your head believes your body should be treated, namely like shit, with little regard to your physical state seeing that you are on the path to an early and welcomed death… …and […]Read More Q: Why do I continue going down this self destructive path?
My voice — once a proud and lyrical voice — is in peril because I don’t feed it anymore. It’s starving. And sorry, screenwriters….Screenplays don’t qualify as literature. Or even writing for that matter. More like emotional erector set throwaways with disbelief as a harbinger for all the holes unfilled and each of the readers […]Read More Even a Coin Toss Has Its Critics
to: madam _______ from: brian john schaefer so you’re out there in venice, my girlfriend’s asleep, and i’m never west of sepulveda (although that ain’t true) and i started thinking: “how the hell is she going to find me if i’m not even acting lost?”) perhaps, there is a point? “indeed…” sadly, quite the opposite… […]Read More an unsent letter to a gallery i imagined as a mistress
REFURBISHING MY MIND The Walking Catastrophe…isn’t really a podcast — though I’m not even sure what constitutes a podcast and frankly, I don’t cast any aspersions when sheep die in my sleep either — but it’s more of an extra-crispy swan dive when things behind the wheel grow much bigger than things usually do […]Read More My Podcast
From the very bottom of your loathsome megalomania to the very top of my spun-shot alphabet and holy rolling grace… I throw y’all some stupid greetings from LIPSTICK CITY and all points in between Cause even the dead wanna be counted (on) once in a while. Life isn’t tragic — lives are tragic — thank […]Read More HELL, IF YOU LIVED THERE YOU’D BE HOME BY NOW
“Can’t You See (I’m Falling Apart)?” (2016), Oil pastels on paper Brian John Schaefer Let’s put on our sad faces for this turn of events. A friend dropped this on me regarding the attached post. And then it was stricken from the LinkedIn news feed — just like that. I think I may be marked for […]Read More Something about Happy Birthday (“Unprofessional?”) + LinkedIn Tunes Out
“I’ll tell you why. In short, they’ve all been cheated. Dealt a lousy hand. Screwed over through no apparent fault of their own. And they don’t just feel it. It’s part of their marrow now. It’s something that will never go away…”Read More Somewhere someone asked…